A DESCRIPTION OF ME.- Follow me on my love Journey.

 

Dear readers,

 

As most of you may know, this blog is about the stigmas of college love and shows different perspectives of students and young individuals’ ideals of love.

 

However, I want to personalize our blog a bit at this time and show you my own aspects of how I face my reality of love and relationships.

 

 

 

Briefly, I wanted to touch on our long break.

We really do want to dedicate time to this page but because we are also students running this.

There are some instances where we might be to busy or not always be able to post frequently.

Along with our mental and physical stability.
In addition to our extracurriculars and emotionally dealing with our relationships with other people HAHA!

Anyway, in the time being while Sam is away.

I will be talking more about my personal romantic love life along with my platonic relationships and train of thought as I uncover some aspects.

Currently, I have struggled tremendously with my relationships this semester.

The amount of times I have cried and laughed has been fairly concerning…well not in a way to cause alarm, but more spiritually and mentally.

 

 

This year so far I have developed more of a sense of discipline and caution.

 

What I mean by this is holding myself accountable first before I find blame to the outside source, but also addressing things in the best way I know how.

 

 

I used to have a hard time getting what I wanted to say across when it came to arguments with my partner and even friendships, or with family.

 

Furthermore, in those moments as an argument would occur, I would be so emotional and would literally say anything that came to mind.

 

Nonetheless, I would feel really exhausted and heated, and that was because of my tone.

 

 

My tone would always seem to be a bother to those that I conversated with. Even if it was just a normal conversation.

 

 

I didn’t have much stability or control over how I spoke. I just did.
But as time went by it was almost as if during the conversations people don’t listen to me.

This used to really bother me over some time especially when it came to communicating with my partner.

 

I started to find ways in addressing my tone and calming myself down when I spoke with people or got into arguments.

 

 

But as result, I never seemed to have a fair and productive conversation…I still struggle with that to this day.

 

However, I couldn’t help but notice that I repeatedly kept finding myself in these situations.

I asked myself what is wrong with me?

Am I not that interesting?

Is there something that I can’t see that other people do?

 

I kept doubting myself.

 

Ultimately, it lead to me not being open with my thoughts or not really being able to have a smooth conversation because I have become too cautious and anxious to fully express myself.

 

 

 

As I write this intro about myself to the readers of this blog,

I have deeper questions to ask myself that may even be projected onto you.

With the constant things that may go wrong in your relationships with people are you the one to reflect on your actions?

Do you constantly feel like you aren’t heard?

Has there been a habit within your relationships where your faults are openly and blatantly pointed out, and can you think of reasons why it is?

How do you feel when these faults are pointed out?

Why do you feel this way? The list goes on and on. These are questions to ask yourself when you have issues that occur.

 

Moreover, my constant reflection on my actions and verbal conversations lead me to rule out things I felt about myself.

 

And also figure out if people in my life are actually being manipulative, bad friends, or insincere.

 

On the other hand, figuring out why something was said and how it was said, and who said it in the first place.

 

This goes for actions too.

 

 

Evidently, I have come to realize my people-pleasing tendency, and moreover, that side of me has led me into the struggle I have had for years.

 

I am here to uncover some of my struggles as a young black female college student.

 

Over the course of the semester, I would hope to cover my experience with communication in relationships; dealing with infidelity, dealing with fake friends, and also outgrowing certain environments, and more!

I hope I didn’t take your brain in circles lol.

 

Please share with me as a college student your deepest struggle with relationships. I would love to hear from you all.

 

Remember, I am not a professional, and just a regular person. some things may apply, some things may not. It all depends on the individual.

 

XOXO,

-Sangai